walking bobolink meadow today we met a guy and a dog named bear, a 6 month pointer. i told him i walk two and he said someone told him about me. he may be looking for a walker when he goes back to work.

it's a funny life. i miss copp so bad but my attention wanders and then i'm tugged abruptly back to reality again. now i feel like i can remember things without crying all the time, and i feel like he's with me, but i'm not able to hug him. 

it gets harder around sunset when i'm tired and the light is fading. then i think about when i will try to sleep and worry over the abyss. but that is an old dilemma, and it's better now truly. i got this.