i wish his spirit could move into me. his body couldn't move, but couldn't his spirit come and live in me? can i move us both while this body lasts? i know, he's gone, and life is different from now on. my boy, i wonder how long i'll keep feeling stunned again. i'm so sorry you're gone, for both of us, but i'm grateful you don't have to struggle to walk anymore. i think i have to keep trying to say how i feel about you, and i think i'll not be able to. when i held you i think you knew. oh my honey boy i want to hold you now.