i went on a walk we walked when mister was younger, south across the island, around the harbor, through the tunnel and past the children's hospital to this stone shore with formations and tidepools. my breathing got faster and i felt a swoon come over me.  i lay down and close my eyes and think of the time we lay down together and listened to the waves. i felt the sadness but my breath quietened and i felt the same peace, the same sun and wind and waves i felt with mister, dog of my heart.