On the freeway going to the dentist I saw the billboard with Dolly Parton smiling, saying Find the Good in Everyone, and I thought Even Netanyahu? But I breathed deep and thought, yeah, try to find the goodness, and now R. just told me Dolly died. 

It's a relief to go to the dentist and walk Lulu after. After Lulu i went to get The Dead Do Not Die: Exterminate All The Brutes and Terra Nullius. One person said the book disappeared but then they found it, and it was two books in one so I also got Is A River Alive? for R. I'm always glad to see this PEACE written in the sidewalk. It's been there a long time quietly repeating.

 you can still love the world. and you don't have to be serious all the time. i'm not, i can be silly too. i'm off to the dentist, breathing. i'm taking my ruby wand.

 i was getting pictures of a big bumblebee when i saw this character looking at me from under the umbrella of another flower. for some reason i'm thinking of telling this grasshopper about my dental nerves. i have to go to dr. johnson today to have an ancient filling replaced. it's not like before. everything or most everything decays but my teeth are more solid than they were for many a year. i think it's residual nerves, but who knows what's residual and what's anticipatory. i talk to grasshoppers.

 afterward i think i met sasha before palma but neither remembered if so. a russian mathmetician. goes back and forth. missing moscow. loves tarkovsky. i think we struck a chord, if there were no politics, only art and nature.

 

 I'll try not to think of the terror state, the fascist data center siege and the impending environmental collapse. I'll think of the pollinators flying from flower to flower as they have for all eternity and look up at the hazy endless sky.