do we say happy memorial day? no, maybe not. i don't know what we say. i want to say some thing or things i'm grateful for every day. i'm grateful there are no blue devil flyovers today.
and i'm grateful mister's still alive, and i'm grateful there haven't been any gunshots yet that i've heard. and i made it to the lake!! and we are very stressed but talking some. and the book i ordered yesterday, drifts, by kate zambreno, was hand delivered today, while the one sent via the local post office is still in limbo a month later (i'll still be grateful if it comes). and i'm grateful i'm not as moribund as i used to be (though i can still sometimes be) i didn't want to live, and i want to live, and find equanimity. and the trump death clock i don't think has reached 100,000 in the forsaken states yet, i'll check: well it's at 99, 459. we can be grateful for a lot of things if we can be grateful for that.