i wake up before the alarm and turn it off. for mister. i don't have to wake up early for mister. i wake up anyway. i rub r and remember rubbing mister his last day, then in the kitchen every day when i came in. he loved to be touched, i loved to touch him. i love to touch r. i will miss his smell, his fur, his warm skin. i did get scared last night, it was the childhood fear of death, but i slept. the alarm is unset at zero.