miss you so much mister my brain hurts and my heart aches. i won't be able to make any more pictures of you and this is your place, this your place still without you, how will you appear when we can't make any more pictures. but so long, so long, every day, we can't just stop. i have to find the way to go on making pictures and thinking about and talking to you without you there, as if to myself, talking to myself to you. talking out loud in my inside voice as i often did with you and finding you looking up and listening. i love the way you listened to me knowing in essence everything i'm saying. hello mister, hello you, i'm going to keep on for you, and saying hello hello mister every morning to you.