i was feeling my brain squeeze with anguish about mister, seeing his look when his back legs folded suddenly out of his control, thinking of him alone in a cage tonight, wondering what happened, what is happening, what will happen to him. as i'm here wondering the same things. we listened and watched krishna das and though the connection was fragile i felt better, one chant he does i can follow along and felt the resonance in my rib cage and frontal lobe, all over. going into it r. said can you chant. i said i don't know, despondent. the practice is release. release of anger, and control. and resting assured that love makes a difference. the buddha went into the world and saw the suffering and reached rock bottom total despair. he said there must be another way. we are not here to try to get somewhere else. we are here. our true nature is always here. we just have to recognize how to look, how to see. we've all been beat down, betrayed again and again. what we can do is train our minds to release, to let go, again and again. love is what holds our molecules together. it's within love that everything happens. the secret is the love. the real thing is who we are already, as we are already. in constant change. we can't stay. mister can't stay. but we can release. he's in there in a cage but he doesn't feel what i think. he feels what he feels. and he knows how to release. i think about how calm he was today, even in pain and fear. all of our hearts have been hurt and betrayed in this country in this world, it's a miracle we're still alive, we're still here.