a week ago i saw the obama construction progress and then went to the horseman

 statue where the lab kid's protest art was ripped down again and then i was

 vehement with eric and then felt his recoil and my regret and though i

 apologized after we parted i felt bad and i was thinking about it and wondering

 how we'd be the next time we meet, and  today i got a gracious message that he'd

 been thinking too, and hoping there was no residue and we could continue

 enjoying our spontaneous meetings. since then i did the same thing with r. after

 the agent orange documentary on public broadcast and i regret that too, and it

 was an even more vehement storm. i realize that many things are going to happen

 that are utterly beyond our control, and we especially need to think on what is

 in our control, namely our thoughts, and words, and personal relations with

 friends and loved ones. i want some more equilibrium, and less vehement storms

 and lashing out, which benefits no one and drains precious energy. i am thankful

 for r.,  and eric, and the dogs, and everyone who abides with me.