i'm going to try and finish the life of robert walser, clairvoyant of the small tonight. i started the day saying you may feel moody today. wait, was that today? it seems so long ago. a minute ago i recalled having a bad spirit drawn out of my body down my left leg which trembled uncontrollably years ago. what if bad feelings indicate the presence of a bad spirit or spirits that have taken up residence in us through a weakness in our spiritual immune system and we just need to exorcise them. maybe i think too much. i can control my thoughts to some degree, but when i dream, can i control what i dream, or what enters through my unconscious dreams? just thinking. sometimes i am who i am and sometimes it's not up to me.