things that are bothering me. racism and how to be an anti-racist. i actually found that book in the little free library and i left it in mister's basement to air out the potential virus plus my other bike's there so i can read that and i want to get white rage. that kind of dovetails with another bothering: not being educated about how to be a dog trainer, but i'm a walker, i say, well it's not good enough sometimes you got to be more, to do more, do something, well i want to do good to be good but i'm tired and lazy, another bothering thing. still i have to say i could be much much worse, i could be in jail or dead of drugs or i could be a racist thug (though i could never be that worse).