it was so long ago, dad.
i went to the garden for therapy. thought on the way, better the mask than the screen. 
read about seeking stress to quell anxiety. funny thing, but i did, and i do. think about automatic and autonomic. breathe consciously.
we can become conscious about how the mind works, we can work with it, i can work with my mind, dad. i can be conscious of trauma, i can be conscious of you. we don't need to rule,
we don't need to be ruled. i don't, nor of course do you. we could not have let go so long ago or we would. so long dad, so long ago.