so i did my zoom therapy and i said i get anxious thinking i can't get through the technology and she thought i was saying i was blocked and i said no it's not me it's technology and she said oh i misunderstood but paradoxically while i'm saying i might not be able to do the zoom the zoom was working clearly so i said i'm just putting that out there i have some anxiety about technology but i do it anyway what else are we going to do in the built world especially in the pandemic reality, you got to make use of what you got and can. can it. do.
the spirit. i said i'm less anxious than i used to be when i was drinking or mister was aging and suffering that made me anxious and the pandemic was so wide you can't get around it and so high you can't get over it and we were suspended in the clouds and what are they made of anyway these days what is nature anymore they say it's getting cleaner with the shutdown but then they say pollution index is dangerous probably all the fucking tear gas and trump exhaust but i don't get down like i used to do i feel a continuum in my life even though mister died i feel his continuum in mine and mine in all even if there's some wicked shit the politicians and the corporate military industrial police state are getting up to that could be the end of this forsaken superstate and the whole precariously built reality of money and pain. i feel the continuum running through me.