i get upset easily sometimes. i'm a rudimentary personality. sometimes i'm rude too. not that i mean to be mean. trying to be what you call authentic, but what does that imply. it upsets me that i can't figure out my own stuff like panoramas on this camera. other people could but they're not me. you can see what i was trying to do can't you. it would be a tiny panorama anyway right. we can reason away anything or anything into being. yet we cannot do some things. i have to eat and meet bear soon. we get our first local produce box today. i have to pay the rent on the studio that's sitting full and empty of me like a self storage or a self museum. it's ok it's a pandemic reality. it's unreal, but it's still a military police state run by psychopaths. the hurt is real, it hurts real, it's real bad. otherwise, i got to eat.