i can't show the video of me and summer mister swimming at pebble beach in 2017. it's too big. it's the only movie i have of us, except the one on channel 32. i may be able to edit it. it would be cool to see him move in here. it's just ordinary, but it's bygone time, ordinary magic. i needed him then, every day, but as much or more, i need him now, i need the bygone mister time. wouldn't he be amazed to know we swam out of the lake together again today and he shook my hand repeatedly?