it's ok i only have little bear for three hours. i knew it would happen, i was informed at the beginning, but that was then, but i'm ok with it. i'll be seeing her, not missing out almost entirely like comet and hilde, though it may change again and i may not have her either. you just don't know what will happen tomorrow—oh dog, the inauguration!—it's a pandemic. and this other kid, nova, i thought i was going to get her for a spell, but that went with the pandemic wind. as i get older maybe i'll go with the flow more and more, maybe the pandemic will be normal before it goes. everything changes with dogs. better to love and lose.