disconsolate, inconsolable, unconsoled and unsolaced aren't all the same, are they? i said in therapy that i was feeling disconsolate but by way of availing myself of consolation by way of grace, but i didn't look up any of the words. gretel erlich's book is unsolaced, and kazuo ishiguro's book is the unconsoled. gretel erlich comes with money from money but that's not to say she doesn't feel unsolaced—she does, at least in book form. she first wrote the solace of open spaces. now latterly she's unsolaced, she's seen destructive change, though she still has her spaces in hawaii like obama, and montana. i'm not looking anything up today i'd like to think i'll get along on instinct. it just occurred to me to ask gretel erlich what she may think about obama land-grabbing the park. i try to equitable, at least in my mind, but that makes me angry, as i think it should make us all, and yet i know some destruction to progress is always due and to everything there is a season nonetheless i feel the injustice and if not inconsolable a little disconsolate and wanting more than a promise of consolation after the looming tower of fact. 

nb, i didn't read the unconsoled. it wasn't like never let me go and i know it's not right to compare books yet i do and i'm hoping on clara and the sun and i wonder if perchance it's a bookend with the unconsoled like unsolaced is for solace. oh dog, i'm getting too tired for sense. maybe more pictures, maybe to rest.