word of the day, benefic. the blue shadows are benefic to me, when i come to think of them, after i see how they look in black and white. bear came to me at a good hard time when mister died and she helped me get on. she's benefic to me. the problem with everything being provisional is everything may disappear before you're ready change is good right if you're ready. if you're not you have to get ready after the change. if you don't change you'll get changed. ideally you'll make the change transformational. ideally you'll be real.