i don't remember everything in chronology. one of my web diaries is gone. i do remember some images that were lost. funny thing, it's ok. it's ok that my old apartment looks like a homeless camp within walls. i can go there and leave and go back there and simplify the place. it could be a relief to lose it like the old diary but i'm able to sort it out and lighten the load in the process of moving on. one day i may say look it's empty, the windows are fixed and i can move on leaving it better than when i came.