i have a little ruby record keeper. what records does it keep? i have the fear of clearing, my desktop and in general? my head? i used to have a giant wooden desktop with a wheel to change the angle though i kept it flat as it was full of materials. when i was working they were materials and unworking they were clutter. now that table is long gone and i pretend i don't have a table to clear, and the desktop get's cluttered just like before in a different reality. it's the same. the fear of clearing, what to keep, and losing. the fear that my materials will swallow me before i can make a record.