There has to be some substance that we feel out in order to know where our boundaries are and what our consistency is. And that’s why humans need relationships to grow, I think, and why we learned so much from struggle. Freedom is the ability to choose what struggle you want in order to learn what you personally desire to learn. And if you want to grow according to your own path, you can go seek out the experiences and the people that you think will help you, rather than be pummeled by external forces that you haven’t chosen to act upon you. 

Ottessa Mosfegh


did i already show this picture? my memory is watery. water remembers everything yet nothing specifically. at some moment i might recall something or i might not, it's in the water. the next book in my queue is death in her hands by ottessa mosfegh. i'm reading an interview now. some people i think have prodigious memory but they don't go in the water.