i'll try to be patient with myself. i'll try to meditate as i go. but it's hard. i wish i had a dog like mister now, but there's no dog like mister, i wish i could be my own dog like mister was to me. if i could be that good i think i could function better in this world, but all i can do is keep trying as i did with mister to do better. i am fallable. and the world is falling apart around me.