we may not be able to change the system, but the pandemic will change it, and us. maybe we didn't know how to change ourselves. dominion overwhelmed our senses. evolution must be largely unconscious, as society moves autonomically. maybe consciousness needs the virus to evolve, as power metastasizes body and mind, plundering earth. maybe the virus will slow the violence of the human systems down to a standstill in the lapse of speed. maybe the virus is between the unconscious and consciousness, a portal, between the dying and the living.
post dat. autonomically popped into my brain and it was underlined so i looked and it was spelled right and was what i meant. then going back to ed yong's second article on long haulers (and i thought, we're all long haulers, the living—and maybe the dead as well) and then dysautonomia popped up.

Dysautonomia refers to a group of neurological disorders in which the autonomic nervous system (ANS) has become dysregulated. This can involve the failure of either the sympathetic nervous system or parasympathetic nervous system or both. The symptoms of dysautonomia can affect every system in the body, sometimes in unpredictable ways. Symptoms may be mild or debilitating. They also may wax and wane in intensity, or be unremitting. Depending on the type of dysautonomia and its cause, patients may deal with symptoms permanently or in some cases recover.