so i ordered in memory of memory or r. ordered for me as i have no credit and though i had already ordered it from the library. somehow it seems the new directions edition has fewer pages than the edition i bought but we'll see, we quit amazon yay though i may look up the various editions of in memory for curiosity. i'll get both anyway and one i'll keep and the last thing that i thought of first before i began writing this is to go somewhere you have to start where you are. obviously.

i canceled my order of in memory of memory. i'm still getting it from the library.