i cleared a little space and the puter cleared the rest on the desktop. i know it's still cluttered behind the screen but it's clear enough for the moment. things are all fucked up and my lower back is sore. it does seem like gravity is increasing. maybe it's true in a way we're being swallowed up by our screens and forces beyond our control but what we call spring is coming. it may be different this time, it will be different than what the handlers say.