i just saw a short computer generated film called the sky is on fire

i have no notion whatsoever how it was made. it combined images that looked "real" with things that didn't belong, and the whole thing seemed unreal but in an unsettling way. i had the feeling something funny is going on. i felt that way before the film, and the phrase has been floating around forever, but this feeling is different. in the film the guy who narrates keeps repeating "we're temporary, but all this, everything we create, will still be here, there are some who hate that they won't be here to see what happens in a thousand years, and they could be so spiteful they'd destroy the world." it made me feel queasy like the computer generated images always do, but the notion that it's a reality that maybe we get used to as we destroy more and more the old reality—that really creeps me out. i can imagine an afterlife stuck in that reality wherein i have no idea how to operate. the narrator says nothing is gone even deleted things, yet what will the traces we leave be without us.

i'm sorry, i can't speak very well. i hardly talk outside. i talk inside my head but there i usually just say something funny's going on. i have a lot to say but it doesn't come out in words. and pictures help but they seem to ask for words. things maybe don't need to be because they can't be explained but i need to be doing something, recording, illustrating, even though i can't say what's going on except some heartless crime and some mystic love i can't give any explanation for it or prognosis it remains anyway to be a partial and imperfect witness.

just saying to each other something funny's going on makes me feel better and not alone.