we got dog star coffee from orion, yum. i'm zipping through mike nichols a life. he's a weird dude. brilliant and also a failure, i like that. i've got a logjam of books which trips my heartrate but in a good way. i watched a lot of moodies with the cats while r. was gone dogsitting and now i'm a solid reader again. tonight we're going to watch nomadland by the maker of the rider chloé zhao. if it's as good as the rider it's great.

now jasper's slinking into the closet again. i hope he's not having another episode like yesterday, crouching and quivering and hiding.