i get melodramatic. i fear the disintegration. everything we knew is subject to the disintegration, even if it is simply another tricky day. today mister is brighter though the sky is grey and drizzling. the way power works on us makes a climate of fear and an environment of disintegration. if human nature is in control we're doomed to chaos and destruction. but we're here and there is nowhere to go and the ones who care will have to care for each other til the end. step lightly now all who care for the living.