it seems it's an animal thing, wanting to get high. s. sent a thing about animals and hallucinogens. dolphins trip on puffer fish, bighorns get stoned on lichen. i've always been drawn to lichen, and thought it was an aesthetic thing, but i have gotten high on aesthetic things, and i recall one time by the rock quarry swimming hole in southern illinois being high on mushrooms and staring like a human microscope at lichen. it was a strange dialogue. i always wanted to escape reality, but maybe reality was rather calling me. i want to escape this reality, if it can even be called so, this human predicament. i want to be an animal on an animal high, in the woods. all i have is this little strip by the railroad tracks, for now, and vegetal memory.