i have to work with anxiety. when i was a kid in kindergarten i was already anxious. i still remember my first day, and that says a lot because my memory is full of the holes of lost memories. i don't know if i lasted til the closing bell. i think the teacher had to call mom to pick me up. today i'm lucky i'm done with school (after sixteen grueling years for naught) and i work for myself (and dogs), or i'd be more anxious than the quivering kid in kindergarten, because i'd have to mask it being a dult and not allowed to melt down in class.
here i am five decades later and i just have to work and play with anxiety. i'm not a kid but society is way more fucked up than kindergarten in decatur and idle know if it will go away.