i wrote john saying if this keeps up i don't know i might have to reduce my walks and he said take today off and i wrote back no i'm coming today! and when i got there i woke lulu from a nap and i hugged her in the elevator and i was so glad to play snowball with lulu i told john i've got to figure this thing out it's so mysterious and fragile and i get dark, but this is what i want to do, play snowball with lulu.