i'm just anxious in general i guess. i start to settle and then startle. thinking about the week with comet. i'll be calm with him. i couldn't get the gate to lock before. do my best. thinking about the fucker obama. he's the wiindigoo monster the water protectors try to fend off. they're busy with the hydra-headed black snake. no protection here. can't even protect our park. hungry, that makes me anxious too. trying to eat less so i can sleep better. anxious and hungry. let me get through this week. then all the time left. hungry anxious hollow so fucking sad empty time. the words disappear.