i woke with a little guilty sense of escape. the cats and i slept in til 7:30 in a cool breeze. no recollection of dreams almost like it was a dreamless sleep or the dreams were pacific so as to be indistinguishable from refreshing sleep. penny's purring in my elbow as i write and tugging at my thigh with a claw. i didn't hear a word from v. in anger or otherwise. it's ok and i am sorry, it wasn't a good situation but i think somehow we were meant to meet.

 my horoscope says A sense that your opinions and actions are influencing others' decisions can invade your thoughts today. Though the nature of this persuasiveness may be concealed from your comprehension[.]

 sometimes i feel like trying something new and helping someone out but i have to be careful and keep things clear and simple. it feels like a matter of sanity and survival. 

 the next post i read says we all have a unique gift and we may not know it and we may be dazzled by perceived genius in others and our own may be something we even regard as negative but if we don't develop our gift a void takes its place. i've thought of myself in moments as a gardener of that void. the void can be the place we grow from.