from now on (and pause yourself when you hear yourself say that) if something doesn't feel right, and you don't hafta—don't do it! and if someone says i feel 100% sure about this, i feel 1000% sure in fact,  listen to the trouble bell's cracked ring, and know by it's discordant knell, that, unconsciously perhaps, they are lying, even if it's only innocent and wishful thinking. when you get the sinking feeling, start swimming.