our experiences color everything. (from daily om). what happened in the past colors the present. i got up at 12:21 (my birthdate) and read vesper flights. an essay about birding atop the empire state building, how many birds thousands of feet above the skyscrapers. how they get trapped in the light of the ghost twin towers. how many crash and fall. and how the light makes them lose the path in the magnetic field, which itself is migrating now. how do we navigate those who may be displaced but do not migrate. our emotional life is affected by things happening around us touching on emotions of the past. we have short term and long term memory and both form at the same time, unless we lose the short term, we experience everything twice. a fellow who was traumatized by terror and lived to tell said everything twice. we say things twice to dogs and babies. in our culture we're traumatized. it's a war on life. i can modify my thoughts and reaction between the past and present but the war and the extraction and the land grab continues.