the environment was merely the outer equivalent of my inner reality. Or perhaps it was the other way around. 

madeleine watts
the inland sea


now i have to get this book too but the library doesn't have it. do i have to buy this book? how do i know what is a must read? there are so many books, i can't read all, even reach, how many books can my brain contain. they go in and out like the tide, leaving a residue 
with mental bits of jetsam. but it seems i have to try to read all that i can even if i'm still the same small container.