i remember someone telling me i was not forthright. it was long ago and i think it was bogus, someone in a new age setup that i dithered into. it may be true, a little. i do dither, and i don't love that about me. today i was invited into the circle of daphne and family and i said yes, feeling grateful to be asked and then feeling i had committed to something beyond me. i dithered and asked if i can just do one walk instead of two. maybe i will be thought not forthright again. but i'm honest and straightforward, i just don't always proceed directly. let's see how this goes. i want to do the saturday walk and keep sunday free. i've been doing this for many years, i think like 12. timing is so strange. we are not in control, but oftentimes things work out. i'm an imperfect being. i trust.