maybe the word of the day is absquatulation because it seems like a made up word and from the look of it you might have no notion of what it might mean, like absolute squat and adulation? absolution squalor? bizarre, it means decamp and it's been around since 1830. i never heard of it. 
a fellow i used to see barefoot with a guitar slung around his neck choked and died. he was losing his sight and wanted to go to new orleans or portugal but he's dead now. i say i could have gone down that way, of course i could have gone many ways. i feel so depressed at times but there's a through line and i don't crash continually or as much or as long. i get slowly more integrated i want to say. i stay tuned more than i tune out i like to think. actually i like to think, though my brain gets exhausted and i forget or lose my train of thought. some of us live and some no longer do.