now i feel beta again. i got my bike back and it's so smooth it's sexy. mister ate with gusto and pooped same. brutus who's bit every member of his own family took carrot sections ever so gently from my hand. i listened to mister's body language and turned when he said turn, and he was energetic with little bursts of running and loving glances all the way home. i put my little zuni fetish on mister. r. says it's a dog. i thought something else. i finished the liberry books i had and got two more, the falconer, and the baudelaire fractal. i always feel beta when i'm reading with pleasure and flow. beta flow. sexy.