i study vision, it's not something to have. i mean to see is enough, to have vision, not a vision. to have open eyes. so when i wish i was a painter the wish is part of seeing. i see the painters paintings, and i see paintings that are not paintings but feel like they painted themselves, they became themselves sort or spontaneously with time and the elements, to be in a state that will continue to change but that just now seems just right, like a painting lovingly painted, for me, and perhaps for you, i hope, for you too, but you will see your own spontaneous paintings too.