i feel so terribly vulnerable. watched a doc about original people in what is called australia. they are in a bleak pass between worlds, poverty stricken, they lease land to the bauxite mine that pollutes the soil air and water. they bargain for a little more life with a slow genocide. anyway it seems remote, right, and comes down to it i feel vulnerable first because i'm invaded inside, and that escapes and translates to all the landgrabs and toxic industries and i feel vulnerable to all the degradation of lands and peoples everywhere. i go on and on in the same vein i know but it's all the same thing and nature gets extracted and poisoned and people got to move. ah fuggit, i'm too tired to write coherently, and i got to put this anxious soul to sleep.