i just realized there's something maternal about this nuclear energy sculpture. i thought of it as regards the bomb and destruction but it's called nuclear energy, and not nuclear bomb. the energy is naturally destructive, of course, it's anti-nature. but all energy is nutrient from the sun originally, and gets twisted around in the dangerous science of the human mind.

anyway, i had an insight about trauma. when i was a kid i felt my mom's trauma, the emotional vacuum of abandonment, the fear and helplessness, i felt her trauma as my own, and it was then. now the circumstance is different and maybe i can learn to stay tuned to another's trauma without feeling overwhelmed by my own long ago. then maybe i can be supportive and soft rather than retreating into my inner world and looking out like a small animal in the bushes hiding from the predators.