now it seems i'm smiling more i think i must not have been smiling much before and i notice people's expressions and there's a spectrum i notice how light sparks light and now i note as well grim expressions might at first make me frown in turn when they pass my smile returns and my smile thinks i might get like that yes i might have been like that and i might get a little angry that people can go around like that and make others feel the weight of grim expression but i might feel compassion and compassion might generate light and light might generate genuine smiles and good feeling despite the sick state of the society we seek to find our true selves in.