well it's kind of embarrassing but it's alright. the tests showed it's chronic pancreatitis, not cancer. i am soul relieved. this is mister on receiving the good news. he wasn't really worried anyway. as the kids say, quite profoundly, it is what it is, whatever. i don't even know how dangerous chronic pancreatitis is, but what the hell, i'm celebrating anyway, it's not the big c. i apologize to those i scared, but the veterinarians scared me first. and frankly i'm pissed they did that and didn't diagnose chronic pancreatitis in the first place without cutting him open. but what do i know. nothing much. i have to go with what the people in the know say.