sometimes i feel it'll never be just ok again.
sometimes when i'm sad i get angry, and when i'm really sad i get really angry. 
it's easier to be angry than sad. anger is quicker than sadness. sadness
is harder to express, especially when it's flooded with anger. 
i feel scared most of the time. i think, why not, why wouldn't i feel scared and anxious and angry in this insanely fucked up world. i feel sad mute anger when i can't express the feelings. anyway i know it's me, i'm stunted emotionally.
it's totally natural, unnaturally. we live in an angry society. we're always angry, our anger instantly becomes hate makes war. we're so angry at our hateful society we want to kill something, the government can do it for us, but we sometimes have to do it for ourselves. we have to hate locally, the wars are too far away, the closest thing to hate is ourselves. but listen, it's not insane, living in a society at war with everything, it's gonna sometimes be more than business as usual, it's gonna surge back, we can't be untouched by hate, we're gonna get fed up. we're gonna get angry.