up dat: sylvia.

we rode the passenger elevator with sylvia this time. last time it was the freight when she dropped the ugly bomb as she stepped smiling off. she was chagrined we were on the people elevator as the freight was in use by the construction crew. idle know if john spoke with her in between elevator rides but while i subdued lulu she told me why she thinks she has a hard time with dogs: it's because the only dog she ever had was unwanted by the whole family when she was a kid. then i felt sad for sylvia, and not defensive of soul cute lulu. it's not that she's ugly, it's just that sylvia can't see properly due to the emotional residue of childhood shame and guilt over the poor unwanted family dog so long ago. she must be in her 80's now. think of all the good dog years she's missed. sorry, lulu, you can't make up for that lost dog in time. now i understand. i want to understand a little more each day.