nothing wrong with going back for a look as long as you bring something good and bring and bring like mister who always does bring.  i finished the oak papers and now i'm slowly beginning in memory of memory. i'll tell you more and i think i'll like it. we saw last night hubert sauper's film epicentro. soul good. having been raised on the lies of american empire it's refreshing to see a place where empire has passed by and people continue smart and spirited. 

a fresh breeze comes in and rocks penny cat's rocker. now she walks in as if hearing me type her name. i say hi, penny lu, and she says murm. 

i'm glad we stay in touch. i'm grateful to be here in this place with r. and the cats. it's a nest overlooking the world. 

i want to take my kid self up into the arms of the old oak tree. in the book there's a tree with heart rot hollow on the inside a person can climb into and look up at the sky. in the pandemic world there are places you can only get to in your mind.