i can't follow the plot. the more complex it gets the more anxious i get and lost. i feel stupid. oh well. when they say the plot sickens that's what it does me. maybe i just don't like plot driven stories. i like stories with no plot, or the most essential only, what grows out of characters interacting. money as plot device cements my brain. when they say follow the money i can't. i want to say i won't. i refuse to follow the money. the money plot bores me. it seems like it's all about the money. the whole big plot. dog—it's exhausting.