going back in time just hours i see there is change. i wrote i'd rather be sad than afraid. that sadness kind of buffers fear. but both sadness and fear affect relationship. you can't shut down the feelings, you have to make room with another. love may accommodate the feelings and introduce itself. i had a difficult time in the studio getting to sleep, a little apprehensive about returning today, but later i felt more at ease, and had pleasant dreams.