then i see hamid and tell him what i felt coming through and he said he has felt it too in this park that something he said a feeling not natural and he said he's seen the orange roundup powder on his shoes. 
we talk about the black trumpsman and i see a slight shift in his face and he says how he's a chef and how blacks already the last in line are being displaced by hispanics who will work for less. i get that and i say my experience of moving around displaced by gentrification and yet not like the blacks i'm a layer up but how money displaces all of us. after i wanted to mention how much worse immigrants have it though. how they flee murderous regimes and how they're hated and incarcerated and murdered here. blacks are too he would say. 
in the end we say there is something going on that is deeply fucked up and unnatural around here.